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Diary of a Student Who Had Financial Aid App Rejected

Dear Diary,

It’s me again. I made it through the day. I swear I must have said “I’m fine” close to 100 times. But I never meant it.

Not once.

Not that anyone noticed, I mean…when anyone asks how you are doing, they’re not really asking how you are. They don’t want to know that my meals have consisted entirely of three pseudo-food groups: Mr. Noodles Cups, Mac and Chees, and coffee. Yes, coffee is a food group. It is to me, at least.

When people ask you how you are, they don’t want to hear how much it sucks that your financial aid application was rejected. They don’t want to hear that you cut out breakfast from your budget. That you only shower at non-peak times to avoid the high cost of the hydro bill. They don’t want to know that you organize your extracurriculars based on where free food is being served. They don’t want to know that the deciding factor for you will always be the cost.

But that’s okay. Because I’m okay. I’m fine. And it’s not that bad. And I don’t even miss that early morning meal. I never liked breakfast anyways. Really. Besides, at the beginning of the month, there’s always bagels and fruit at Mayo’s Muffin Madness Iacobucci’s Fiduciary Snack Duty. And it’s actually helping with my fitness regime. I can’t be tempted to binge on snacks and such in between meals because…well I just can’t splurge like that. I’ve never been healthier in my life, I swear.

I even contemplated signing up for that yoga at the law school. That counts for something right? I mean, I would have signed up but it cost like sixty bucks and who has that kind of money lying around? NOT me. But really??? The school can’t even offer that for free?

At least the massage during exams was free.

Although it could have been longer…

And I definitely wouldn’t mind having that during the school year. Why don’t they offer that during the whole school year? It’s as if the school thinks students only get stressed during that stage in the semester. Like, hello.

Anyways, I gotta admit, as much as I love free food, I’m starting to resent the pizza, sandwiches, and wraps that are the preferred items at the law school. Whatever happened to variety? How about some burgers or pasta? And dessert. Just speaking about this variety welcomes an unwanted guest to the table: my grumbling stomach. I can even almost taste them….*drools*

Guess I shouldn’t complain though, free food is FREE. I’m even cutting back on the complaining, which has done wonders for my outlook on life. Okay, well maybe not entirely…but it’s okay, it’s only happened like 5 times last week. Progress, I know. I’m doing much better.

God, I wish I had some financial aid. But it’s okay. I’m fine.

It’s only 332 days until the next cycle to apply for financial aid. I’m going to take it one day at a time.

Til next time,

Summer Cohen

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